The Kidney, that Transplanted

So, the latest in the saga of the Firey Sag. is the donating of a Kidney. Lacey, my younger sister has been without the use of her kidneys now for 6 years. She has been doing peritoneal dialysis for all that time, and it has come to the place where she can no longer sustain life as it is, doing this process. It's time for a transplant.
It just so happens that her sag. sister, her being a sag. too, Is a match!
I went and had my blood drawn to see if I was a match, knowing all along that I, was the donor. I even told her husband Ben, 2 nights before, that I had a feeling that I was the one. There was never a question in my mind that I would give Lacey my kidney, if I was the match. When the Doctor called to let me know I was O positive, a feeling of joy and a strange feeling, of who me, came over me. I cried and tried to process what I just heard and how that would affect me.
There really is no processing something like this, it just is what it is. You do what you know you need to make your sisters life better. I told Lacey, I would expect you to do the same for me. That is what you do for your family. She felt guilty about me giving up my organ. That is not an issue at all.
I know there is much more to explore about this and it will take time to integrate. I'm prepared to hold it when it does, and to open myself up to this experience full- heartedly. Life is far to short and precious to sit by and allow full, ripe experiences pass us by. Besides, this firey kidney will kick!
For now, I'm just learning to let go more and more, letting the love of my family guide me and protect me from any worry. I'm just plugging along with Lacey's Fundraiser, school and life. I know this journey is going to be a juicy one. Lacey and I already laugh about sharing a room in the hospital and getting some good ole laugh therapy! More to come. Stay tuned.