The Infinite Power of Allowing in Our Lives

Life has an interesting way of guiding us into the best for our growth and awareness, of our divinity. When and if we allow ourselves to let go of the reins in our lives, we will ALWAYS be guided in the direction of what the universe or source has wanted us to understand and accept for our deepest growth in our lives. Deepok Chopra calls this harnessing the infinite power of coincidence. In his book The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire, he talks about how we live in a field of infinite possibility, and that all we need to manifest is put attention on that we desire. And science is proving this today. This is my blog not a research paper, so I'll not go into those details. You can research for yourself an experiment known as Eistein-Polodsky-Rosen paradox or the level of existence called Minkowski's eight-dimensional hyperspace. These experiments prove that without consciousness acting as an observer and interpreter, everything would exist only as pure potential. Miracles are all around us we just need to notice them. The coincidences we see all the time and call them quincky dinks are actually miracles revealing themselves to us or source allowing an opportunity for growth in our lives.
So, what does any of this have to do with me? Everything. When I notice that I am the orchestrator of my life I am tremendously empowered! I can notice whatever I like and it is in my life almost instantly. My thoughts whether they are healthy or dis-eased are going to bring me exactly what they are.
It has been said that this time on the planet is shifting to be like the 4th dimension, which in my understanding is us like super heros, sort of, and there is instant manifestation, well not instant, that could be chaos! The 4th dimension is a manifestation of a more conscious kind, an enlightened kind. Therefore the age of new consciousness, this is what the Mayans where talking about. The Mayans kept a calendar documenting consciousness. They predicted a type of consciousness ending not the world, and a beginning of a new kind of consciousness. I believe and I see it in my own life, that this is the time of noticing the miracles and the ability to manifest. This manifestation can be almost instantaneous!
Source wants us to meet up with it, and to manifest in our lives all the blessings and beauty it has to offer. WE are the only thing in the way of happiness and joy beyond our belief. Our stagnant beliefs that don't serve our highest good are the road blocks to nirvana! I know I am an optimist, and it's a good thing. We optimists are here to remind you of what your life can be like. You need a fire under your ass once in a while and, well I'm that fire in some way.
What I want to spark is a remembering of the divine and powerful ability we have inside us. We have a heart space that has an enormous amount of electro-magnetic www.heartmath.com energy, we can use it to perform miracles in our lives, and in others just as Jesus did, or we can use it to keep us stuck and manifest all the shit we can complain about in our lives and how it's not working. We can take notice of coincidences and strange happenings and flow with them and allow the universe to reveal our joy and beauty.
I hope this is a choice we all make. I have been watching it unfold in my life for quite sometime now and it is delicious, sweet and full of joy. I will continue to allow it to open and blossom and reveal to me a life of hope, peace and utter happiness beyond my believe.

We are always in love, for love is always in us

Taking the steps toward authentic living in this being, called Ali, has been one of the most remarkable, strange and beautiful experiences yet, while on this planet.
I no longer am walking in the shadow world, of me holding hands with the whore achetype.
She is still with me, but not guiding my path. She sits in her room, perhaps laughing at times, but not taking the lead.
I am now in a place of being that is almost surreal. I know not what the path holds, except that it doesn't hold love being seperate from me, in any form. Love is not something outside of me, it is me!And this I've known, unable to reach it and be it, until now.
At it's most infantile seed to it's vastness of infinite star dust! I am the love I have been seeking my entire 38 years here.
I understand why I felt it was seperate from me, and am ok with the process of that, no matter how painful finding out I was molested at a young age, was at the moment of it's realization. I sincerely feel the pain needed to be deep to reach the root.
I'm not angry or bitter, I do not hate or feel sorrow.
I am instead, full of the gratefulness this moment has given me, to realize the pattern running under my life, orchestrating such a brilliant pattern of reaching out beyond, and missing, for love. I understand to my core, to my tender, young, sweet heart, that it is all for the now. It is all for the being of me NOW!
I'm in a sacred space of healing and being in MY life Now!
I get to orchestrate the beautiful symphony, called Ali's life!
What a sacred gift! I will cherish it and hold it close, I will not take it for granted! Like a fabulous lover, I will hold it sweetly and allow it to give me every ounce of it's self.
I will allow it's arms to enfold me and show me my beautiful, succulent self.
I will allow it to give the greatest love I've ever known...to me!
Sweet, dear, goldenhearted Ali.
That beautiful being of tenderness and innocenct light can now, truly and completely realize her life!
All the joy, all the perfection and all the authentic LOVE!!
I'm so Excited to walk this path of gorgeous love for SELF! The chain is broken, I can be with my children, I can be with all and be with me, in delicious love! hee hee
My gratitude busts it's bounds!

In this process, I am reading beautiful things and this is one of them...

We can't make choices for another person. However clearly we might think we see the light of infinite possibility, if our beloved sees no possibility at all, then that is his or her choice. We need to let go of the physical habits we have associated with this love, that is true, but we never, ever have to let go of the love itself.
It remains with us because it is part of God. It will be part of us until the day we die, and I assume it will be part of us forever after that.

To forgive a love is to let go of the things of the body, and embrace fully the things of spirit. Spirit can never be dinminished or sacrificed in anyway.
Every love is part of every other love, and every love builds on the love that came before. Love is a mighty trajectory, moving through out lives by divine design, appearing to be composed of seperate loves, yet that is just illusion. Like stars in the distant sky appearing to twinkle on and off, it might seem that we are "in" a relationship, and at another time "out" of relationship, but such is just a silly story that has no meaning in heaven.
We are always love, for love is always in us. Different smiles and different faces mean nothing. There is only one love. There is only one love.

Love
Ali

Shedding Light on the Shadows

This is quite possibly one of the hardest posts or things I've ever talked about in my life.
I've recently been doing some internal work on myself. Meaning I've been taking a deeper look into what makes me behave like I do and have such strong feelings about certain things in my life, specifically relationships. Why I'm not in one, why I have such strong feelings surrounding them and why I tend to give all of myself away on a silver platter to almost anyone who gives me the slightest attention...the whore achetype.

What I've shed light on is some of the darkest human experiences possible.
I don't want to yet go into detail about what I uncovered buried deep in my subconscious. And the things my young self experienced. I can only say I am now in the process of unearthing all of the remains and bringing them out into the world to be realized and lightened by love and light.
This process has given me the most freedom I've ever felt. I feel that my life up to this point has been unreal, a farce. I feel I have been robbed!
Robbed of one of the most precious parts about human experience...love...authentic Love!

I was so sick I would hate men because I was afraid they would take me soul, yet I would be hurt and want to die, if they didn't want me. A sick game I was playing at.

The strange thing about shedding light on this part of me is that now, I'm in a place of not knowing who I am. I mean the Ali me, I understand that I am a beautiful being. I'm in a space of finding out who Ali is Now. I guess that's the gift in it. If I am in a state of not knowing who I am and not living on that sickness anymore, than I can make myself!
I am Free to bring to BEing the Ali of my choice.
Blessed Be!!!! That is such a precious feeling!
I'm treading on such tender soil. I am being cautious and curious at the same time.
What beautiful seeds do I want to plant? What fruit do I wish to put in my basket for ripening?
I go with love and tenderness for myself in mind at all times. I feel like a young girl again, finding out that I can have in my life anything my heart desires...only this time, there is no voice in the background saying "not really."
There is no voice in the background, just a sweet, kind knowing that all is well and that I can be authentic, bringing into my life all the love I require to receive and give back...in a healthy, authentic way. I'm no longer tethered to a program or paradigm of shame, hurt and pain!
I'm FREE!!!!!
I feel the deepest love! I've never felt Love this Deep EVER!!! Not for me, not for anyone else. I never felt worthy of it!
I feel worthy of all kindness, love, tenderness, desire and Life it self!!! Life itself!
I've Never wanted to Live as much as I do RIGHT NOW!! And I've NEVER felt capable of giving love as BIG or as Deep as RIGHT NOW!!

Even though apprehensive of being out of the dark woods after being hid away for so long...I know that the things and beings I attract into my world will forever be different.
I will NEVER Be the same again!! I feel a gentle, calm smooth over my life and soak into the aching crevices and heal them.
I know I'm not done with this inner archeological site...I'm just done with this particular dig. This one was the missing link...all others will just be beautiful specimens for all to see.

Love and Light on your journey to the center of the world and back ~
Love,
Ali

~Within your own house dwells the the treasure of joy; so why do you go begging from door to door?

My Native Ancestors

The Pow Wow today got me thinking. I've been interested in investigating further my Native American heritage. I have Navajo on one side and Cherokee on the other. There is a part in me that longs to know more about this native place I come from and what that means to my life...now. I look around me and see African dance, Irish dance, Ballet from France, Hip Hop, Modern from the U.S. One thing I do not see is Native American dance. On a level I understand why this is, and I also want to tap into that part of my DNA, into the blood and energy of it from this land we stand on in this country.
I've pondered this before, while reigniting my passion for dance. It just felt natural to reach out to my native heritage and grasp something in my blood. I feel in doing so, I can bring to life something almost dead in me and my line, while bringing it to life in others. Watching the feathers fly, the bells chime and the headdresses sway to the drums and chanting, opened the door of wonder once more. It was exhilarating and inspiring.
How can I bring this fire of heritage to the dance floor in an authentic way that gives the Native American movement and energy it's place and to tap into the beauty and ancient ones while honoring it all. This is one of my quests. I am truly inspired by my grandmothers and their line of native lives and understanding. I yearn to understand more and to dip my cup into that vast well of wisdom.
Today while taking photos of the people dancing at the Pow Wow, I asked their names and where they are from. WA, Duck Valley in the Owyhees, Salt Lake and Oregon. I found it easy to converse with them all, even though I felt like an intruder of some kind and when approaching any native I always feel a sense of inferiority, a strange phenomenon on my part. All were kind and chatty. We talked about all kinds of things from birthdays coming up, to the competition, to gambling. I was asked by the grandmother of Millie, the young 16 year old from White Swan, WA if I'd like to come to one of their Pow Wow's. Absolutely. I am honored.
So, looks like in September this year I'll be camping out at the Beautiful White Swan reservation. It will be a wonderful opportunity to take a deeper look at this native question and bring some of that energy to my life. It is my wish and quest to grab a hold of that line in my being and bring an understanding to it in any capacity and than to spread it out into my practice and on the dance floor. This fascinates me to the bone and I'm thrilled to take a step closer to where I come from and what lies dormant in my genes. Who knew, Taco Bell Arena Pow Wow to native ceremony? Life is grand, don't you think?

The Kidney, that Transplanted

So, the latest in the saga of the Firey Sag. is the donating of a Kidney. Lacey, my younger sister has been without the use of her kidneys now for 6 years. She has been doing peritoneal dialysis for all that time, and it has come to the place where she can no longer sustain life as it is, doing this process. It's time for a transplant.
It just so happens that her sag. sister, her being a sag. too, Is a match!
I went and had my blood drawn to see if I was a match, knowing all along that I, was the donor. I even told her husband Ben, 2 nights before, that I had a feeling that I was the one. There was never a question in my mind that I would give Lacey my kidney, if I was the match. When the Doctor called to let me know I was O positive, a feeling of joy and a strange feeling, of who me, came over me. I cried and tried to process what I just heard and how that would affect me.
There really is no processing something like this, it just is what it is. You do what you know you need to make your sisters life better. I told Lacey, I would expect you to do the same for me. That is what you do for your family. She felt guilty about me giving up my organ. That is not an issue at all.
I know there is much more to explore about this and it will take time to integrate. I'm prepared to hold it when it does, and to open myself up to this experience full- heartedly. Life is far to short and precious to sit by and allow full, ripe experiences pass us by. Besides, this firey kidney will kick!
For now, I'm just learning to let go more and more, letting the love of my family guide me and protect me from any worry. I'm just plugging along with Lacey's Fundraiser, school and life. I know this journey is going to be a juicy one. Lacey and I already laugh about sharing a room in the hospital and getting some good ole laugh therapy! More to come. Stay tuned.

What Can You Do? You Say...

My sister read my last entry and wanted to know what she can do. What we all can do.
Well, it's simple really...
You can make a Big difference by refusing plastics bags at the grocery store anymore.
You get a small token for bringing your own anyway. So do it!
On my other blog site www.youarethechangeyouwishtosee.blogspot.com you can get info on where to get some great bags for groceries and such.

Another small thing you can do is Recycle of course. But... check in your area for how they want the recycling done. Some places will refuse anything dirty or with labels still on them. It will just end up in the landfill if not recycled properly.

Drive as little as possible! This is a big one. Anytime you can take the bus, train carpool or ride your bike. Sometimes this takes some serious changing of your comfort zone but, once you get in the habit of changing things up a bit... you'll be so glad you did. Your heart will thank you and so will your kids.

Speaking of kids, get them involved. Let them know why your recycling, shopping at thift stores and why they Do Not need a mitt made out of tissue to wipe their behinds. Take them on nature walks, talk about the environment and how WE effect it tremendously. Find out about your families carbon foot print, the impact your family makes on the environment around you. This you'll also be able to calculate on my other blog site. Make it a family challenge and adventure to lower your Carbon Footprint.
1. Turn off lights
2. Dry the clothes outside
3. Ride bikes together as often as possible
4. Turn off the faucet when brushing your teeth
5. Turn off the car- No idling in parking spots
6. Get a Recycling center at your house
7. Grow a garden
8. Make your own grocery bags
9. Get long lasting florescent bulbs for ever outlet in your house
10. Turn down heat when your not home
11. Get outside in Nature
12. Turn off the Television at least one night out of the week, preferably 5 nights

Watch The Story of Stuff by: Annie Leonard it's Wonderful and Educational. All Families ought to take the time to watch this little film.

Find global and local causes that deal with your environment and support them. Talk about them and get involved.

Get yourself informed on a Global level. There is alot going on out there and you are indirectly affected by what is going on out there. Stay informed.

Read: Radical Simplicity by: Jim Merkel

Get your children's school involved in lowering their Carbon Footprint. Guaranteed those kids will love the challenge.
This may seem like alot and it is. Rome wasn't built in a day and we are going to have to be patient until real change takes place of our current lifestyles. But, doing some simple things now we can start making change in ourselves and our community which will have lasting effects.
There is more to cover on this subject so check back and visit my other blog for lots of great ideas and information on our changing planet and what we can do to make it a Great change.

Namaste~

REVOLUTION~ ANYONE....

So, I know I've been on this soap box once or twice before but, it is sooo worth repeating!

Are we going to WAKE UP some time soon?
Seriously people, our children and out neighbors children deserve a REVOLUTION.
We got our hayday 80's and 90's what do they get? The... what a F....ing mess you left us 2000's.
Fanfreakin Tastic! I'm sure their thrilled...or they will be when their old enough & wise enough to take a look around and say " Where did all the Buffalo go?" * Actually they are already wise & their READY!

We are dealing with a generation of people who are light years ahead of us consciously. This generation are here during the age of Aquarius. I'm not talking hippiedy dippiedy Aquarius either... I mean the full blown real deal! The Age of One Consciousness~

Ok, so there are things going on that are part of becoming conscious. I understand that...
What I don't understand is that in order for this shift we must embrace it, resinate with it and accept it is REAL... and that there ain't no stoppin now, Baby.
It's here to STAY!
We either embrace or resist.
In Resistance, you just get more of that...... Resistance!
Why the Hell do we want more of that?! .....WE have been Resisting our being here for this human experience..... since we got here. Remember the Natives who lived in the Americas? Remember Home on the Range? The inquisition? The Dark ages? Woman's sufferage?...Slavery? WWII?
The Iraq war? Hello!
Enough said. It's time to embrace our journey on this planet......at this time. What is, Is still going to Be. It's our choice as to how we are going to BE now.
Are we going to resist and resist OR are we going to Embrace and Accept...And Finally understand that we are in this TOGETHER!
Do you HEAR That? TOGETHER!
Our planet is getting smaller and so are our resources. WE better get together to make some choices soon...or our children...will pay the consequences.
We need to PAY ATTENTION!
It has been said by a wise man that if we are not paying Attention we will pay.... in pain.
I am paying attention & I feel it is our time to stop being so apathetic & to Start Paying Attention so we can give our children something of real worth... An understanding of our oneness, that we are in this together, the lesson of responsibility and what it feels like to Truly and Wonderfully Belong..... We all want that, a sense of belonging.
Well, we do belong....to One Another! To SOURCE!
This is a Beautiful thing! It is my sincere wish that all children get this and know this!
They are Worth it and.... WE all are worth this!
Beings...on a Human Journey....

So, WAKE up!... STAND up! ...and Do Something for Goodness SAKE!

REVOLT! CRY OUT!
WE must first put our ATTENTION on out Choice then we must FEEL it with our entire BEing ...then we Must .......ACT!

Believe me, this is the most you can give your children. A college education? Obsolete.
A True Sense of BELONGING....PRICELESS!

Namaste~