We are always in love, for love is always in us

Taking the steps toward authentic living in this being, called Ali, has been one of the most remarkable, strange and beautiful experiences yet, while on this planet.
I no longer am walking in the shadow world, of me holding hands with the whore achetype.
She is still with me, but not guiding my path. She sits in her room, perhaps laughing at times, but not taking the lead.
I am now in a place of being that is almost surreal. I know not what the path holds, except that it doesn't hold love being seperate from me, in any form. Love is not something outside of me, it is me!And this I've known, unable to reach it and be it, until now.
At it's most infantile seed to it's vastness of infinite star dust! I am the love I have been seeking my entire 38 years here.
I understand why I felt it was seperate from me, and am ok with the process of that, no matter how painful finding out I was molested at a young age, was at the moment of it's realization. I sincerely feel the pain needed to be deep to reach the root.
I'm not angry or bitter, I do not hate or feel sorrow.
I am instead, full of the gratefulness this moment has given me, to realize the pattern running under my life, orchestrating such a brilliant pattern of reaching out beyond, and missing, for love. I understand to my core, to my tender, young, sweet heart, that it is all for the now. It is all for the being of me NOW!
I'm in a sacred space of healing and being in MY life Now!
I get to orchestrate the beautiful symphony, called Ali's life!
What a sacred gift! I will cherish it and hold it close, I will not take it for granted! Like a fabulous lover, I will hold it sweetly and allow it to give me every ounce of it's self.
I will allow it's arms to enfold me and show me my beautiful, succulent self.
I will allow it to give the greatest love I've ever known...to me!
Sweet, dear, goldenhearted Ali.
That beautiful being of tenderness and innocenct light can now, truly and completely realize her life!
All the joy, all the perfection and all the authentic LOVE!!
I'm so Excited to walk this path of gorgeous love for SELF! The chain is broken, I can be with my children, I can be with all and be with me, in delicious love! hee hee
My gratitude busts it's bounds!

In this process, I am reading beautiful things and this is one of them...

We can't make choices for another person. However clearly we might think we see the light of infinite possibility, if our beloved sees no possibility at all, then that is his or her choice. We need to let go of the physical habits we have associated with this love, that is true, but we never, ever have to let go of the love itself.
It remains with us because it is part of God. It will be part of us until the day we die, and I assume it will be part of us forever after that.

To forgive a love is to let go of the things of the body, and embrace fully the things of spirit. Spirit can never be dinminished or sacrificed in anyway.
Every love is part of every other love, and every love builds on the love that came before. Love is a mighty trajectory, moving through out lives by divine design, appearing to be composed of seperate loves, yet that is just illusion. Like stars in the distant sky appearing to twinkle on and off, it might seem that we are "in" a relationship, and at another time "out" of relationship, but such is just a silly story that has no meaning in heaven.
We are always love, for love is always in us. Different smiles and different faces mean nothing. There is only one love. There is only one love.

Love
Ali